Someting more about perfect e.V.o.L

Perfect love is not receiveing, its giving and forgiving.
Perfect love is not red roses of Valentines day, its rest of the 364 days of knowing you love someone.
Perfect love is not phone calls and stolen kisses, its silent smiles in memory of your sweetheart. Perfect love is not a grand wedding but spending a lifetime together.
Perfect love is not fight and make up's, its loving the one who ANNOYS the hell out of you.

Do you love someone perfectly??

Someting about ...........E.v.o.L

Its really love when ---

- You probably even remember how many seconds you spoke to her the last time.
- Every time you see him/her, your heart does cart - wheels.
- You cry buckets of tears over a silly fight,
- You find her beautiful even when she is at her ugliest best.

That’s how it goes... at every point of life, you meet new friends, there are some who creates an impression that may be good...may be bad. Experience with them show the path that should.... would.... or could have been taken at that point of time to avert any unsolicited occurrence. In this journey so called as life there are few who know what’s right and what wrong but still choose the latter one may be because of many reason... may be some of them are opportunist!! ~

When there is a keen desire to achieve a position, then that person never thinks about sentiments as such but the target is to achieve that position, either hook or by crook. I have also confronted with a few of them. They just use you as a ladder to success but when you realize this, its too late and you have nothing but just a handful of quick sand. The more you try to hold this in your palm, the more it slips. So to hold that you have to open your hand but when I came to know, the autumn has already passed and winter season has approached till your doorstep. You don't have any choice but to open the door. It’s said that when your problem/Sadness becomes unbearable; make it as your companion. Slowly and steadily... eventually this would become your friend.

Two years of MBA have taught me, many things...first, you have to believe in yourself and second, never be overconfident...Also came across many friends who were ready to help but there is always a cost.... everything in terms of economics...its said that there is nothing called as free lunch Everything in terms of Profit and loss. If you have to sustain in this world, there are three magical words... Tact...Pact.... and then Act.... that’s what is now the ringing tones in business. Not only in business but also in real life. Everyone uses these three magical words............Think if you have ever used this or not...
Being very practical and thinking this, I do say that my approach is somewhat pessimistic towards relations but yes; I am very optimistic to find someone who can understand me better tha...the more you run towards, deeper n what I think about myself. I thought I found but it was mere a mirage it goes.

Roses !!

Gather ye rose-buds while ye may,Old Time is still aflying, And this same flower that smiles today,Tomorow will be dying.

[Robert Herrick]

So nothing is perpetual !! Time flies and so the relations. So may be what we adore today is likely to be ruined unless we seek the importance.

WHY ??

"P" ------

Not to mention her name but she exist, not here but somewhere very very far from me..... not even met with her but yes know almost everything about her......how she feel....how she think......why is happy...........on what occasion she becomes very sad and even ready to bully anybody........ Right 'P'?

Althogh she's alone but still she is very very strong in terms of her achievments and even very proud of what she has achieved till now but still alone. She knows how to enjoy with friends and consider me as a friend and even call me as "boi".........not everytime but sometimes........or may be I heard wrong....... She's sceptical if I ever ask about anybody other than her...............

Now, her turn.........

Ther's no season without any reason.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,

Sometimes I think ..... what I studied in my schooldays, Newtons third law-- every action has an equal and opposite reaction, so if there is reaction, there might be some action that has already taken place and so if there is any season , there is always a reason behind that.
Think again-------------

A thought....

Same Saturday once again and I am sitting in my office and just thinking about what has happened to me. One time, I eagerly waited for Monday to come and now, its just as usual as if everything has changed now. I sometimes think why this thought is prevailing in my mind for quite sometimes; why am I not happy; why I am not getting that that enthusiasm now; what has changed or rather has something changed??

Yes, my friend also says that you are not that what u were before and also states stupid reason for that but I always refrain from those things; but....dont know, may be true, may be false!!

Sitting on my place, when look out, can see everyone, can hear everything loud and clear but somewhere, I cannot see what I should and cannot hear what I want to. Or perhaps, I don’t want to...........

Will think again and need to do some self-introspection; ....................

Keep you updated...........

"After my death"

I am dead and I see from heaven,
The swelling face of a fair girl,
of this worldly Inn.

Tears run down her cheeks,
and she weeps for weeks and weeks.
Everyday in dead of night,
when everything is out of sight.

She does get up from her bed and she walks,
leaving her life maid laid.
She does look very quite and calm,
Walking with a burning candle on her palm.

She does reach to my tomb and cried,
not to drop a tear, she tried.
It dropped on my Chest,
God! Help me, I was suppressed.

Then a shadow appears from the grave,
hold her arm and says her to be brave.

"I am dead and yet I am glad,
For God's sake don't be mad.
You have duties in this world,
be cheerful and sing like a bird.

"You have still freshness of rose,
Don’t let it loose and be morose.
Get up from this wielded mourn,
Because tomorrow is yours"

Nuances de la lune - Incertaine

It’s very usual event for me to watch moon but last night when I saw its milky screen, just some thoughts popped up from nowhere , some questions..........and somewhat instigated me to search for the answers.

How many shades of moon are there; from no moon day to full moon; sometimes looks like its dominating our sky; over stars and sometimes searching for her own identifying this worldly inn!! Every night, it’s different from previous night...sometime more sometime less......

In fact, there is no inconsistency......but life demands consistency in some aspects. but can we blame moon for that; its just its habit or rather way of living........every time a new view but yes, that luminescent color never change.

Some are just like that.......bright, incandescent, inflamed, livid, swooning, waton and enigmatic but..............


(To be continued)

Belief............

It can also be deceptive........Trust me!!

I was wrong!, belief is always wrong, never believe on yr belief!!!!!!!!!

Just a thought

Its almost 9:00 PM and I am still at office; sometimes defragmenting my system and many times refreshing my mails ................ Also sometimes looking outside through film coated glass wall................just empty desk!! Can also see my mirror image on those glasses, reflections of tube lights that sometimes gives a dazzling expression, in a corner, someone sitting pretending to work (may be I am wrong), and passers by looking at me.

Abruptly, my mobile rang (although was at vibrator mode) but gave me a slight move; bad luck !! it was just a missed call........and ...........then again same screen and same thoughts........how to pass this weekend!

Options.............can visit friends, movies, or just having a sound sleep. Nop; changed my mood, had a mail from my school friend "Shishir" and looking forward to meet him tomorrow and would be watching movies with my office colleagues on Sundays!! and that’s it....... weekends would pass like this

But still, I am not happy today and I am not able to find the reason as well. Today was good day in terms of work; so called justified with my salary as well; Boss and colleagues have no reason to blame me but why am I not happy. What’s missing in my life.........??

Need to do some self-introspection..................something missing, indeed!!

Reason to smile

I sometime think for why a person smile and a big "U"is always there on anyone face! I thought and thought and thought harder and came to conclusion that he is very "Sad" so he smile. Reason being wants to hide something !!..................or may be one cannot share that moment. Not asking much but reason for being so happy............sad............whatever.......... (My other virture : This could just be an excuse...may be he is really happy that's why he is smiling....a real smile....be true to yourself....if you are not happy it doesnt mean that the next person who is smiling is not happy actually).........everytime he contradicts!!

Date with Night^^^^^^^

Life seems so beautiful if someone is there who cares for you and you are being cared by someone. Who understand you and can guide as well but it’s not so easy to search a needle in desert. Many faces are there whereby one can rely on and in many relations as well. In this journey, I also tried play my stake and.............and that’s exactly how it happened........................


Bewildered!! And also confused as I was about to meet that enigmatic "Night”. Got an invitation from nowhere that she wants to meet but was just wondering how she would look like! Perhaps, she would wear an exotic dress of darkness with lustrous black diamond necklace. With these anticipations, and lot lot more, I began to set up my thoughts......feelings.......... and an inexplicable excitement.

Friends advised that it would be just like an illusion and nothing else but still I renounced all the theories and determined to meet her, whatever would be the consequences.... My stand was that it would just like an experience with whom no one likes but still, beauty lies in the eyes of beholder and foremost, perception can be changed as well. That’s what I want to prove. Yes, you can call it as experimenting with thoughts and try to prove the world is wrong.

Day after day, second by second, the time slowly begin to sweep like anything, for the first time I thought if I can run faster than time and meet her, can only judge my eagerness as she is being personified now in every work I do, every book I read and even characters resembles her, I virtually begin to talk with her!! Thought; am I loosing my senses: ; infatuated!!.......Perhaps!!


Month: July, 17th the D day

'T was the day that I had been waited patiently; over decades!! Life seems so beautiful today, from morning, I completed all my work, one after another and another.............. And finally got ample to time to look at myself : Mirror Mirror on the wall, Joe's waiting for someone, can you tell who's the prettiest among all..........? Unfortunately mirror can show only the reflection but not feelings. Still, I was disillusioned with that charismatic belief and suddenly my mobile rang with that symphony tune that was personalized for her. A reminder!! Yes, confirming that I have to meet her at 8:00 PM.

it’s just getting afternoon and I tried to persuade that you can still have some more work to do. I sat on my favorite couch and surf the channels; from HBO to Discovery till Cartoon network............ and ...... and....... I found myself walking over a ridge with her, yes, Miss Night. I was not able to see her face as she was hiding that with a black net; may be does not want to reveal her identity and yes, cannot forget those diamond rings in her little finger, was shining as if star has appeared from nowhere and suddenly, a change in season.............. And I found myself on my couch with remote control in my hand.

God! It was just a dream.........................................................................................

Getting 6:00 and really I need to hurry up. My bike was waiting to take me up till my destination and fortunately with a kick it started as well. I left everything behind, seems all the trees, houses, friends and their golden words as well and I was slowly moving towards that eternity I had been waiting for . Finally, I reached at dead end where we were supposed to meet. I looked around, saw birds returning to their nest, sun was setting down and slowly and gradually stars were coming up to sky. Moon has already showed his presence but SHE was not there. Persuaded myself that she would be on her way and also looked million times, that path from where she was expected to reach. Even I counted all the stones that were on the way and every one of them told that there is no one here. Tried to console myself by giving fake excuses like she might have missed her bus or may be lost her wallets and still waiting for me at any place or even tomorrow is her exams but I know the truth..............she didn't came.

My friends were right and I was wrong. I was following a dream that cannot be true. It was just an endless waiting for someone who never exists. But still, she is alive in my dreams and I am happy for that and still I am in search of that name that I called as my Night…….light……..jyoti

An Encounter with Nature

Nature Begets nature!! Its so simple to be natural, Isn't so? Your own identity without any additon of perplexed images and also a true reason to adore someone.........something.........thats natural indeed. An enigmatic feelings when someone is at the bough of nature and this what happened!!.

And thanks to someone ^ who sway my thoughts......emotions......... towards never ending journey in search of nature.

A life full of Dreams : Yes, this is what we can call as serendipity!! Moment to cherish among dreams and finding a moment of eternal satisfaction..............is that what we call life? Perhaps if one realise!!