Just a thought

Its almost 9:00 PM and I am still at office; sometimes defragmenting my system and many times refreshing my mails ................ Also sometimes looking outside through film coated glass wall................just empty desk!! Can also see my mirror image on those glasses, reflections of tube lights that sometimes gives a dazzling expression, in a corner, someone sitting pretending to work (may be I am wrong), and passers by looking at me.

Abruptly, my mobile rang (although was at vibrator mode) but gave me a slight move; bad luck !! it was just a missed call........and ...........then again same screen and same thoughts........how to pass this weekend!

Options.............can visit friends, movies, or just having a sound sleep. Nop; changed my mood, had a mail from my school friend "Shishir" and looking forward to meet him tomorrow and would be watching movies with my office colleagues on Sundays!! and that’s it....... weekends would pass like this

But still, I am not happy today and I am not able to find the reason as well. Today was good day in terms of work; so called justified with my salary as well; Boss and colleagues have no reason to blame me but why am I not happy. What’s missing in my life.........??

Need to do some self-introspection..................something missing, indeed!!

Reason to smile

I sometime think for why a person smile and a big "U"is always there on anyone face! I thought and thought and thought harder and came to conclusion that he is very "Sad" so he smile. Reason being wants to hide something !!..................or may be one cannot share that moment. Not asking much but reason for being so happy............sad............whatever.......... (My other virture : This could just be an excuse...may be he is really happy that's why he is smiling....a real smile....be true to yourself....if you are not happy it doesnt mean that the next person who is smiling is not happy actually).........everytime he contradicts!!

Date with Night^^^^^^^

Life seems so beautiful if someone is there who cares for you and you are being cared by someone. Who understand you and can guide as well but it’s not so easy to search a needle in desert. Many faces are there whereby one can rely on and in many relations as well. In this journey, I also tried play my stake and.............and that’s exactly how it happened........................


Bewildered!! And also confused as I was about to meet that enigmatic "Night”. Got an invitation from nowhere that she wants to meet but was just wondering how she would look like! Perhaps, she would wear an exotic dress of darkness with lustrous black diamond necklace. With these anticipations, and lot lot more, I began to set up my thoughts......feelings.......... and an inexplicable excitement.

Friends advised that it would be just like an illusion and nothing else but still I renounced all the theories and determined to meet her, whatever would be the consequences.... My stand was that it would just like an experience with whom no one likes but still, beauty lies in the eyes of beholder and foremost, perception can be changed as well. That’s what I want to prove. Yes, you can call it as experimenting with thoughts and try to prove the world is wrong.

Day after day, second by second, the time slowly begin to sweep like anything, for the first time I thought if I can run faster than time and meet her, can only judge my eagerness as she is being personified now in every work I do, every book I read and even characters resembles her, I virtually begin to talk with her!! Thought; am I loosing my senses: ; infatuated!!.......Perhaps!!


Month: July, 17th the D day

'T was the day that I had been waited patiently; over decades!! Life seems so beautiful today, from morning, I completed all my work, one after another and another.............. And finally got ample to time to look at myself : Mirror Mirror on the wall, Joe's waiting for someone, can you tell who's the prettiest among all..........? Unfortunately mirror can show only the reflection but not feelings. Still, I was disillusioned with that charismatic belief and suddenly my mobile rang with that symphony tune that was personalized for her. A reminder!! Yes, confirming that I have to meet her at 8:00 PM.

it’s just getting afternoon and I tried to persuade that you can still have some more work to do. I sat on my favorite couch and surf the channels; from HBO to Discovery till Cartoon network............ and ...... and....... I found myself walking over a ridge with her, yes, Miss Night. I was not able to see her face as she was hiding that with a black net; may be does not want to reveal her identity and yes, cannot forget those diamond rings in her little finger, was shining as if star has appeared from nowhere and suddenly, a change in season.............. And I found myself on my couch with remote control in my hand.

God! It was just a dream.........................................................................................

Getting 6:00 and really I need to hurry up. My bike was waiting to take me up till my destination and fortunately with a kick it started as well. I left everything behind, seems all the trees, houses, friends and their golden words as well and I was slowly moving towards that eternity I had been waiting for . Finally, I reached at dead end where we were supposed to meet. I looked around, saw birds returning to their nest, sun was setting down and slowly and gradually stars were coming up to sky. Moon has already showed his presence but SHE was not there. Persuaded myself that she would be on her way and also looked million times, that path from where she was expected to reach. Even I counted all the stones that were on the way and every one of them told that there is no one here. Tried to console myself by giving fake excuses like she might have missed her bus or may be lost her wallets and still waiting for me at any place or even tomorrow is her exams but I know the truth..............she didn't came.

My friends were right and I was wrong. I was following a dream that cannot be true. It was just an endless waiting for someone who never exists. But still, she is alive in my dreams and I am happy for that and still I am in search of that name that I called as my Night…….light……..jyoti

An Encounter with Nature

Nature Begets nature!! Its so simple to be natural, Isn't so? Your own identity without any additon of perplexed images and also a true reason to adore someone.........something.........thats natural indeed. An enigmatic feelings when someone is at the bough of nature and this what happened!!.

And thanks to someone ^ who sway my thoughts......emotions......... towards never ending journey in search of nature.

A life full of Dreams : Yes, this is what we can call as serendipity!! Moment to cherish among dreams and finding a moment of eternal satisfaction..............is that what we call life? Perhaps if one realise!!